don't get me wrong, i share this story
because i just want to re-read it someday.
somehow i get jealous when i saw
how close my friends are w their family
especially w their dad.
mine?
we kinda have this empty space between us.
we rarely talks face to face. we only say
some important stuff.
talks when needed.
shut when there is nothing important to say.
random conversation?
yeah. rare moment.
when my mum not around then thats the time
he will ask me just to know where shes been.
that's it. w our poker face staring at each other.
cold.
sometimes when we fight.
we don't scold to each other.
we text. and its pretty ugly ya know.
its like i'm his son not his daughter.
harsh harsh words came out.
sometimes i cried. sometimes i just
changes my face and said to myself
so be it. whatever. not worth it.
and i will delete the conversation without even read it.
sometimes i feel i dont wanna come home.
its hurt. to be inside that house when he is there.
we passed each other like a strangers on the street.
family?
somehow i feel that we are shy to express our love to each other.
its feel awkward sometimes. yes.
i don't kiss my mum cheeks. weird right?
there is one time i kissed her and then i feel shy (☉__☉”)
i only hug her from the back. when i wanna sleep.
i only kiss her hands to show respect.
but for sure i love her. i share almost everything about my life
with her. yeah i love her but i don't show it very much.
i gave her present. listen to her rant..sometimes.
and we do fight sometimes. err most of the time.
but i will pamper her back or she will.
hug is very important you know.
i never hug her in front of her
when she can see my face. nope.
even when i think about it i feel like i want to cry
sebak.
because i love her so much but i cant hug her like that.
sad isn't it. maybe if i had the chance i will cry.
because finally i hug her. maybe. i don't know.
ooh my eyes is blurry right now.
hush hush.
if you guys are 24 and you hug your father w so much love in your heart and it shows through
your eyes..both of you are lucky. and... i will be that one person that can only stares and feel
nothing. start questioning myself "how does it feel? to hug your own dad and laugh at every jokes he makes.
having a nice conversation and search for him when you have lots of burden on your shoulder, rant about it to your father like hes your bestfriend. ( ._. ) your superhero. i want that.
everything is impossible. yea right. we? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ un-pred-ict-able
my sister? haha. we never hug each other. did we? i can't recall. but we support each other.
when my mum have this bad feelings towards her i will say something that will ease her thought.
to calm her down and make her understand my sister situation. some issue. yea of course i love her ƪ(ˆ▽ˆ)ʃ
my main point is. treasure your family if you guys have all that lovey-dovey.
do most of the stuff with your family. pray together, dinner together, have a vacation, eat ice cream together,
watching movies together, prepare breakfast together, cleaning house together. it will help build the relationship.
i lost every bit of it when i'm 12.
I don't blame them.
we only had some issues that need to be fix.
but we choose to forget it. and yet it still in my head.
so guys please hug your family members every time you had the chance.
hug and say beautiful things to each everyone of you.
you are such a lucky human being.
ppl always asking why you always here not your own house?
so this prolly answers your question.
